Post 5: Rape Trauma (with Stories of Rape victim)

For me Rape is most case of women. As a woman this is the worst crime for me because we are talking about virginity and if you lose it you can't bring it back any more. Because having virginity is defining of a clean and discipline women. Every time I heard a story of a women had been raped, it's really emotional because I always think what if that thing would happen to me,it's scared. Right? I don't know what I will do because rape also affect not just your body but also your mind.
Let's have some explanation about rape:

What is Rape? According to the article of Rape Crisis Centre entitled What is Rape or Sexual Assault from the website of Rapecrisiscentre-Glassglow defined that rape is an unwanted sexual behaviour that causes humiliation,  pain, fear, or intimidation and this can include unwanted kissing and touching, forcing, someone to watch sexual 
acts, sexual harassment or forcing a woman into prostitution. Rape must by "by force" implies that violent struggle must have taken place and for many women this is not the case. The threat of violence or death is often used by rapist to force women to comply.

Then, what is Rape Trauma? Rape Trauma syndrome is an anxiety disorder experience by rape victims, it refers to a form of psychological trauma and Post traumatic stress disorder. Rape Trauma Syndrome encompasses the psychological, behavioural, and physical reactions that are common to all sexual assault victims. Defined by the article of RTG Law and Legal Definition by USLegal in the website of definitions.uslegal.

I read an article named Personal Stories of Rape Victim from the website of Christian Answers.

I read all the story that are written in their website but one story that I can relate to myself not because I'm raped but as a college student right now who socialize with my fellow colleagues in APC. Here's her story: She was a freshmen college that time and she live at a dorm. Of-course as a college student you need to be socialize with others. She was invited in a party by her dorm mates so as a teen you want always hang out with your fiends and be happy. So she was very determined and excited to go in a party. They already at the party and enjoy it but her dorm mates abandoned her as soon they stepped through the door, they're like a partiers that squeezed together like sardines with strong alcohol, beer, and with a loud music booming. In the middle of party she wanted to leave but her dorm mate was the only one driving so she has no choice but to sit and wait. While sitting on a couch their was a guy came over, named Roger. Roger talked with her and offered her an alcohol  but she said she's not drinking alcohol so Roger offered her a pepsi and they talk and go to quiet place. And this girl started to can't control herself in sleeping because of pepsi with a mix of drug, so she fell a sleep and Roger raped her. She tried to scream and ask help but she can't control herself.  And eventually her dorm mate found her and brought her to nurse, the nurse found out that she was raped and she was shocked and she feels ashamed, guilty, and frightened. After she found out on what happened to her she went home and spent her time in therapy. So now, she feel better but sometime when she remember about it she felt afraid. - Catja's story

"It was the worst night of my life."  stated by Catja

That story was posted on September 1999. In this age right now it was so scared to trust strangers and go to the party with yourself alone, 1999 was a horrible age of her life but how much more this age, it is more wicked. Right? As a college of this age, every time you are alone in outside you will easily feel the imminent danger in your surroundings because today the world is more wicked and rude. You will feel you're unsafe, danger, and frightened. Specially the girls, their a lot of danger in the world but the most horrible crime in all is being raped and loosing the virginity of a girl by forcing her to have sex. Of course as a girl, it is the only thing that's very important for me as a woman that I can give only to my future husband and being a clean woman . So it's very scared to be alone in a wicked outside of world.

Here's another story of Rape Victim:

I knew this story at Youtube entitled Rape Victim Julie Weil tells shocking story of being attacked  (Rape Victim Interview):

That time Julie Weil is a mother of two kids, a 3 years old girl and 8 months old boy. There at the car because Julie was done picking her child at the school, the car was at the church parking lot. Julie was sitting on the driver's sit while her children is sitting at the back. Then after talking with her friend in front of her car somebody rushed him from behind and hit her  over the head then she and her child started screaming then she fell down after that, the guy and Julie go inside the car  and told her that he is looking for a mother with a child because it was the perfect hostage according to the guy. But for Julie that no mother can leave a child under any circumstances or anything, so she has no choice but to stay with her children in a car. The guy drive the car until they stop at bushes then the guy raped Julie several times and then guy force to watch Julie's children that happening. And the guy made Julie turn around and command Julie that look at your son's eyes, Julie did and the rapist guy said "Every time you look your son's eyes I want you to remember what it feels when I raped you. "  After that happens they go back to the civilization place and raping Julie again and tortured the child in witnessing their mother like that inside her car. Then they go back again in Church parking lot and rapist left them. And Julie file a case at the Police station and after a days the rapist was arrested because of the DNA that seen on Julie's shirt. After that happen to Julie, she supported the law about rape case to pass on Senate and helping rape victims.

"Looking in my son's eyes it took me forever." stated by Julie Weil

Of all the story that I read and watch this is the most horrible, scary, worst rape case that I konw because Julie is not the only victim, her children are involved. Her children witness horrible thing and it's not just horrible but it is seeing your mother in that situation on that you can't understand happening around you. So the child may redirect it until he or she grown up. While Julie's experience is the most worst thing that can happen of being a woman and a mother. Why? Imagine Julie was raped repeatedly and seeing your children suffering, crying, and abusing their innocent mind of seeing their mother has been raped. I don't know what to say but my heart is breaking for Julie and her children and I was so shocked on what the rapist said to Julie. I mean what kind of human is that, he doesn't have conscience with the children. It's hard feeling to know that things happening in this age.

Psychological Effect of Rape:

The emotional trauma caused by rape or sexual assault can be severe and long lasting. The victim may affect in different ways. Each person has different way on how they affect. 

According to the article of America's Mental Health Channel entitled Psychological and Physical Effects of Rape at the website of Healthy Place states that one of the most common psychological consequences of rape is self blame. Victims use self blame as an avoidance coping tool. Others are having Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) this are feelings of being anxiety and stress depression, Flashbacks- memories of rape as if it is taking place again, Borderline personality disorder, sleep disorder, eating disorder, guilt, distrust of others, anger, powerlessness, intense emotion, and fears about safety. 

In that statement states that Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, anxiety, stress depression, and fears are can be the cause of rape that can cause to Rape trauma. And can lead you to psychological disorder that can go to long healing process. Of all  the sickness in this world the hardest sick or disorder can human have is Psychological disorder because even you, can't fight yourself because your sickness or you disorder are controlling you, you can't fight on your own because you are under your mental illness. 

I think this is the hardest research that I've done in my life because this topic is about a woman who lost her virginity in forcing her to have sex and a child that witness his mother sufferings. How many times I change my mind about this topic but because it's hard to select new topic so I choose this topic again. Why is it hard for me to make research on it? Because it's very emotional topic and it makes me scared because I'm a woman and every I google a picture of the rape victim I felt like "Oh God", it's really hard to see woman in that picture has been tortured, raped, and no life any more. I don't know what to say but my heart and my emotion is very heavy. I don't know why I can't control my feelings if I saw that horrible picture of a woman had been raped. As a woman, virginity is the most important thing of being woman because in terms of virginity there is cleanliness and discipline that's why it's very important to us women who understand the true meaning of virginity. Be careful women.